7:2018

Hey guys. Why I didn't show any of my picture in this blog? Am I hiding? Nope. I'm not hiding. I'm just not confident enough. And I put myself as someone with bipolar condition. I have multiple personality. Sometimes I'm happy, sometimes I'm sad out of nowhere, and sometimes I just bland *no emotion. And that's why I change how my blog looks for like more than dozen time! I love writing blog but I still afraid to open wide about myself. I don't want all the peoples who knows me, knowing...

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6:2018

Disclaimer :  I'm not a liberal regarding of this post. Triggered post incoming.  I've been waiting so long to write about this. Like I'm scared if someone get triggered with this matter. But, I need to talk about this. So are you guys happened to heard about Panic! At the Disco? That I write sins not tragedies guys? Brendon Urie? Spencer? Ryan Ross? Jon Walker? Wait, I will put the picture. This is like 13 years ago. And we know that Brendon Urie is the only sole member left...

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5:2018

I always adore art. Since I was child. In kindergarten, I used to draw full figured pic. Not like stick man or random scribbled. I'm not saying that I'm good with art. I just say that how passionate I am with art. Drawing, sketching, coloring does make my heart calm. Been suffer with moderate depression, these kind of thing does help me to cope with it. I tend to do traditional art, means I use pencil, brushes, water color. I'm not into digital art yet because lack of "stuff". I mean I need...

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4:2018

I'm falling into deep deep deep emotional hole tonight. The music serving sad songs playing with the string of my heart. Wondering and keep wondering, does this life need to end like this? Sick and tired with the same routine. Sick and tired pretending everything is fine. Sick and tired... Serving for others heart too many time, Without knowing how to take care my aching heart. And now let drown all the feeling that gasping for air one more time. Keep repeating and repeating, Until...

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3:2018

Honey and Jude Official Website  Honey and Jude YouTube channel  Honey and Jude Instagram page  Honey and Jude. You guys  must wondering who these people are. They are Honey and Jude! A pop duo from Los Angeles, California. Why I make an entry about them? Because I stan them! Being their fans since 26 October 2016.  How I met them? Not really met, but found them. One day, I was on YouTube searching for new Lady Gaga's song because she just released...

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2:2018

Giving up on love. Have you ever been in this situation? It's suckhhh >.< Everyone with terrible experience having this feeling in their life. Lucky to the soul that have found their soulmate. Most of my love experience end up in tragic situation. Either they left me, left me without me knowing and the most tragic situation that made my heart ache until now is, knowing by myself that he got engaged with someone and didn't tell me anything about it. And then couple of month after that...

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1:2018

So, hye. New theme, "new post". Most importantly new blog name. Let's make it short. Why Kay? I want people to call me Kay to be honest, and I'm just getting old. I've been thinking lately why I make this blog? I love this blog. I've been blogging since 2010. And I don't want to abandon it. And I will go anonymous with this one. For those who already know me, that's fine. Thanks for remember me :) Yaa, ranting is fun. Equally not fun. This blog will gonna be me posting some ranting shit...

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